My Aching Heart....

Last night I put Steven Paul to bed (at 8:00 pm) and he would NOT go to sleep. He kept just laying in there going "Mommy, Mommy, Mommy." I would go in there and ask him what he wanted and he would say he wanted me to sleep with him. Well I kept telling him no cus I was not going to start that habit. So he does it for like a hour. I go in there and tell him that was enough and to go to sleep because we had to go to church tomorrow. He quiets down then after about 30 minutes he starts up again. I was starting to get mad. I tell him that if I have to go into his room again he was going to get a spanking. I let him do it for about 30 minutes, all he is saying is "Mommy, Mommy, Mommy." I go in and spat him on his butt and that set him off. I walk out of the room and he starts SCREAMING. I wait a few minutes and go in there....

Me-- "Why are you so upset?"

Steven Paul--"I'm sad." ( He is saying this threw his sniffles, SO SAD!"

Me-"Ok why are you sad?"

SP--"Because I'm crying."

Me--"Why are you crying?"

Sp--"Because I want you."

Me--"OK what do you want me to do?"

Sp--"All I want to do is snuggle with you Mommy."

Oh my gosh I just started crying, I just picked him up and held him until he went to sleep. I could not stop looking at how precious his face was. He broke my heart. I love him so much! I finally made it to bed around 12:00 am, but I would not have traded holding my precious son for anything.